it's only awkward if you make it (part deux)

alternate title: "let's see how many exes i can run into in a week!"



what a past couple of days. oh wow. so i'm in new york. it's cold. texan here, so lows in the 30s-40s turns me into a popsicle. today is turning out to be a beautiful day. yay! anyways. so i got to ny mon around 5. was locked out of my house. one of the office ppl saved the day, let me in, and gave me her key because i was given the wrong one! (ps, go monica!) unpacked a little that night, more on tues. went to the theatre to get keys to the storage house and proceeded to go to storage to load up all the sound crap and take it to the theatre. did all that i could, which in the end was a full load in the company van. then tues night old sound guy shows up to help me wed.



side note: sound guy from last summer and i "kept each other company" all summer. he turned into an ass for some reason unknown. and when i left at the end, i expected to never see him again. wrong.



we had dinner with the td and he helper for the day. they left. old sound guy and i went back to my place because well, that's where he stayed while here. we talked. etc. nothing happened. he slept in one bed, i slept in another. he is a cuddle whore, so he did try a few times to share a bed. failed. and the next day we went to the theatre, picked up the van, got what was left out of storage, and set up the sound system. we then had dinner again, this time just the two of us. not much was said. and we finished what needed to be done today. he has now left. and i'm back at the house to finish unpacking my crap and cleaning up the mess that i made so the mc doesn't come in tomorrow wondering why my crap is everywhere.



all i know at this point is time heals. give people a second chance. just be happy. and most importantly as i have learned these past couple of days, forgive but don't forget.

it's only awkward if you make it

i'm going to need to repeat the title here. it's only awkward if you make it. ok, now that we understand this, on with the blog. it might be a little difficult to keep up with this story guys, so be prepared.

so i'm in a badass hotel on the border of virginia and maryland. i left dallas sat around 10/1030, made it to crossville, tn twelve hours later. drove to my ex's house to drop off my car and went straight to the bar.

ok, let's back up a little bit here. my ex. dated him in utah. we were pretty serious, i'd say. and we had a very ugly split. very ugly. we couldn't stand to be in the same room with each other. you could cut the tension with a spoon. a spoon! and we bitched at each other constantly. made for an awkward situation for everyone around. so i moved to ny for a job. had nothing holding me back, needed to get away from the drama and the bullshit. so i left.

ok, back to tn. with my ex. in a bar. who i didn't expect to actually invite me to stay in his house for the night. hell, i didn't expect a stop for a cup of coffee to last for any more than 30 mins. i was surprised as hell when he said i could stay there. so by this point, any expectation is out the door. so we get to the bar. mind you i haven't had a real meal since the night before. i've just been snacking in the car. and he's been drinking for a short period of time. i start drinking on a fairly empty stomach. awesome sauce idea there! midnight thirty rolls around. we're drunk. go home. and all is forgotten. .... really? really, really? huh..... odd. but ok. did i mention we ended on HORRIBLE terms? and now it seems as though we picked up where we left off a month before the split. interesting. but ok. i think i'm ok with this.

now as i continue on with my drive the next day, all the drama comes back to me. the pain. the hell. the lies. all the bullshit. how did we end up here? talking. huh.

so now here i am. in a badass hotel. in virginia. i'll reach my final destination tomorrow afternoon. until then, good night.

i'll settle for a slowdown

short blog to share a thought.

i am ready to settle down. i think i am anyway. as i wait for the morning to arrive, with my car all packed, "ready" to make to drive to upstate new york, i notice that i don't want to keep moving like this. i want a stable job. i want to have a place of my own. have my friends near me. and be happy. live a "normal" life. i don't want to keep packing my car and driving across the country for a temporary job.

that's all. maybe my thoughts will change when i'm up there. who knows. but i know as of right now, i'm ready to start my life.

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I must look just like a fool here
in the middle of the road
standing there in your rearview
and getting soaked to the bone
this land is flat as it is mean
a man can see for a hundred miles
So im still praying I might see
the glow of a brake light.

But your wheels just turn,
down the road ahead
If it hurts at all
you aint showed it yet
I keep a lookin' for
the slightest sign that you might miss
what you left behind
I know there's nothing stopping you now
but I'd settle for a slowdown.

I held on longer then I should
Leaving you might change your mind
those bright lights of Hollywood
would fade in time.

But your wheels just turn
down the road ahead
If it hurts at all
you aint showed it yet
I keep a lookin' for
the slightest sign
that you might miss
what you left behind
I know there's nothing stopping you now
but I'd settle for a slowdown.

But your wheels just turn
down the road ahead
if it hurts at all
you aint showed it yet
your just a tiny dot on that horizon line come on tap those brakes
baby just one time
I know there's nothing stopping you now
Im not asking you to turn back around

I'd settle for a slowdown
come on just slow down
I'd settle for a slow down

-dierks bentley "settle for a slowdown"

summer time

here's my address for the summer. i won't always check with the box office to see if i get anything, but i'll get mail when i pick up my pay checks. and if i get a package, it'll be placed in my office (aka my sound booth).

Elizabeth Pritchett
c/o The MacHaydn Theatre
PO Box 204
Chatham, NY 12037

i'll be in new york may 10th - sept 19th (officially till the 19th but probably till the end of sept).

i'm going to miss you guys while i'm away, but we'll keep in contact.
remember, you can always some visit! i'll give you a place to stay and half price tickets to the shows.

see you guys in a couple of months!

love to all! :)

busy bee

so i've been terribly busy and away from home so much the last couple of weeks, i've slept in five different beds/couches in a week, come on, really? but it's been a fun ride. i went to austin to visit some friends. found out that someone i though was a decent individual lied to me over and over, including on one of the worst nights i've had in a while. that hurt a little, but i've moved past. spent time with someone i've been wanting to get to know. we are so similar it's scary. he invited me to help him and the company he works for load in a p.a. system for a three days grace show. it was flipping awesome!! i met cale, the bass tech for three days grace. he thinks he's a rockstar. he's a douche. cute. but major douche. we hung out for a good portion of the day. i got to meet some of the members of the band, too. i found the best seats for the concert (powerman 5000, 10 years, flyleaf, three days grace). i split each band 50/50 on the side stage in guitar world and in f.o.h. it was so cool. and like all good things, it came to an end. i went back to austin and spent the rest of my time with an old friend from high school. although we have each changed and grown so much as individuals in the last 5 years, it seems as though things haven't changed. i love austin.

i'm moving back to chatham, ny for the summer. i've had so much fun with my friends the past couple of months, it's bittersweet to leave. 5 months will fly by and i'll be back, things won't change much, and i'll hopefully move to austin if all goes well. just need to find a job down there. help anyone?