i run, and no, not to you

I run from hate
I run from prejudice
I run from pessimists
But I run too late
I run my life
Or is it running me
Run from my past
I run too fast
Or too slow it seems
When lies become the truth
That’s when I run to you

usually when i skip town i'm running from something. when moving to utah i ran from all the college bullshit. i was tired of that life. i was unhappy. i left. i ran. i ran all the way from texas to utah for crying out loud. then i moved to new york. again, running from the life that i established in a short period of time. i had fun when i lived in utah, i loved my job, i loved my friends, the job worked for what it was, and like all good things, it ended. and summer hit. new crew of people came in. got a different job. still loved the job. moved apartments. things were never the same. and my friends went with the new group of people. and there was more drama than any one person could handle. dear God, the drama was hell. and so i ran from it. new york was a different experience. it had its moments. never was the best that it could have been. but it was new, and different, and a much needed change for me. then came the end of summer. most everyone was gone. nothing was left. the job was done. and it was time to move on. enter texas again. i don't like where i live. but it works for what it is, i guess. i've met back up with my old friends, who i love and missed dearly while away. i found out who my real friends are. i made new ones. i ran into people i hadn't seen in two to three to four years, sometimes even up to five years. it was a trip. things never changed. i am having more fun now rather than when i first got here. i am enjoying, for the most part, my current life. it's a little monotonous, i have to say, but overall, i can't complain about my current life. i have nothing to run from. do i? i don't want to leave. i want to see where this current road takes me. but i cannot pass up this opportunity to go back to new york. this is what i want. isn't it? i'm peering through the peephole of one road i can take while staring through the open door of the other road. damn, i want to stay. i don't want to leave. i have nothing to run from. why can't i stay just a couple months longer, see where this road can take me?

I run from hate
I run from prejudice
I run from pessimists
But I run too late
I run my life
Or is it running me
Run from my past
I run too fast
Or too slow it seems
When lies become the truth
That’s when I run to you

the good, the bad, the ugly

I turned on the news this evening, the first three stories, the headliners of the night, are about death, missing children with a psychotic mother, and how the death of one individual might mean more bad news in sight. Why are the only things we see on tv negative? Why are we all obsessed with the bad?! Are our lives that awful that we must find something to make our lives seem better? Why is society obsessed with Tiger and Jesse? Who cares that they cheated?! Yes, Sandra is a great actress, a beautiful individual, and America's sweetheart, I feel sorry for her, but why do I, why do you, why does the entire world care?! There was a news article online this afternoon about Jessica Simpson not wearing make-up on her latest magazine cover. Oh my God, she's human! She's trying to show the world that make-up doesn't make a person who they are, and it doesn't make a person beautiful. What counts is on the inside! I swear, the world is driving me friggen insane! Our lives cannot possibly be so bad that we must obsess over other people's unfortunate lives?!

Interesting reads

Bored? Have some time to waste? Here are some links to some news articles I found intriguing, interesting, or just plain odd. Enjoy my lovelies!

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Are women blinded by jealousy? I know I can be a major jealous person. I can turn something completely Innocent into a lie or a cheat. It can be construed into psychotic I'm sure. What makes women jealous though??

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/science/science-news/7589591/Women-are-blinded-by-jealousy.html

I'm curious to see what happens when the study is turned around on the guys. I don't think the results will be anywhere near the same. Your thoughts??

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Should you move in with your spouse before marriage? Looks like no according to this study.

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/uknews/5840263/Couples-who-live-together-before-marriage-more-likely-to-get-divorced.html

Um, yeah, I see it to be true. Let's just first make sure you are together for the right reason, and equally important, that you stay together for the right reasons. Either way it goes though, once you move in together, you witness a whole new level of quirks from the other. That alone would make me want to split early. I've been there, done that one. Next!

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Always belived in a higher being or a recent development for you?

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/science/7567077/Were-we-born-to-believe.html

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Have a head ache and don't like to take pills or medicine? We looks like researchers have found a new cure, lucky for you!

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/science/science-news/7578899/Handling-cash-better-at-killing-pain-than-aspirin-study-claims.html

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Did man come from ape? I've always not been so sure about evolution, but I might start believing in it a little more now.

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/science/evolution/7550033/Missing-link-between-man-and-apes-found.html

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I saved the best for last. Ha ha, get it? ;)

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/science/7589696/Good-things-do-come-to-those-who-wait-scientists-say.html

Wanted: Your Opinion

I need to have a poll here. I'm going to do a comparison here for you all. And i want your honest answer.


Type A - The Party Girl
-life of the party
-needs to be seen by all
-loud
-wears outfits to be noticed
-on the go
-demanding
-clingy
-high maintenance
-wild


Type B - The Girl Next Door
-part of the party
-content with staying around friends
-quiet
-doesn't attract attention
-dresses sexy, but not slutty
-easy going
-sweet
-low maintenance
-good personality
-trustworthy, reliable



So tell me: Who would you go after?

Dressed to impress

Being a girl is an expensive task. Buying cute outfits and accessories, getting the hair done, all the beauty products, keeping the legs shaved, refreshing the nail polish as needed. All the effort for what? High heels hurt the feet. Waxing, so painful. Hundreds and hundreds of dollars spent on sexy tops, tight jeans, cute shoes, sparkly bracelets, earrings, rings, necklaces. For what? Taking an hour or more to get ready to go out. Why can't guys accept us for who we are? When I'm just hanging out, I don't wear make up, stay in baggy/comfortable clothes, and wear my hair up. Once I'm with someone for a while, I let my guard down, stop wearing the make up, and I still cared for by the guy. Occasionally, yes, I do like to dress cute, but not every friggen time I go out! So why do we start with this image that we like to always be dressed to impress?