home is where you are

so i might have made a mistake.
it's too early to say for sure.
they say to follow your heart.
but i didn't listen.
normally i do,
but not this time.

and that's where i might have made the mistake.
i might have walked away from something good.
from someone who likes me for me.
someone who is genuine,
a total sweetheart,
and someone who i could have been severely close to.

but i walked away.
for a job, you see.
i listened to my head.
not my heart.
and i might have made a big mistake.
but it's still too early to tell.

i thought this would be great for the resume.
get me back into the subject i studied in school.
but i could have found something near him.
i might have made a mistake.
we won't know for sure for a while.

the summer hasn't really started yet.
give it a month.
let me get through the first show.
let's see how the summer goes.
let's see what happens at the end,
when i go home,
when i go see him again.
maybe he'll come visit me.
then i'll know.

i might have made a mistake.
but it's too early to say for sure.


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I shed a lot of years and tears
In this broke down used up town
Bled my heart on these city streets
As strangers lay their money down
I'm home

I've never known a love
My soul was searching for
Now I look into that great big blue
Feel nothing I've felt before
I'm alone

So I'll shake some hands
Chase that calling star
I'm gonna drive so fast
I can only drive so far
Gonna lay my bricks
And park my car
Gonna sow my seeds somewhere
But home is where you are

See your washed out faded smiles
When I look back on this place
All that held me as a child
Is begging me to stay
But I'm gone

So I'll shake some hands
Chase that calling star
I'm gonna drive so fast
I can only drive so far
Gonna lay my bricks
And park my car
Gonna sow my seeds somewhere
But home is where you are

I'll follow that blinding sun
What I can't see past
Knowing I can always go back home

So I'll shake some hands
Chase that calling star
I'm gonna drive so fast
I can only drive so far
Gonna lay my bricks
And park my car
Gonna sow my seeds somewhere
But home is where you are

It's where you are

-"home" by eli young band from the album "jet black and jealous"