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umm... hello?  my name is jo and i have been away from my blog for months now.  (hi jo.)

well hello there readers, i'm back.  life was crazy busy in austin, so no time to update.  but i'm no longer there, and haven't been since february.  i'm now in hell paso. oh, sorry, el paso.  i live in a cute one bedroom seven hundred something square feet apartment with the boy, aka boss.  we have lots of problems, but we're working them out.  we've learned a lot about each other in the past six months, but i think we're headed to a positive place again.  yes, we've been together for six months.  can't remember the last time i was in a relationship lasting this long. 

i'm not excited to be in my current place.  like i said boy and i have been having lots of issues, i work in a dead end job, and we both are barely scraping by.  many times i wonder if moving out here was a mistake, but where else would i have gone?  i had no place to live in austin.  the only other option was the move back in with the parentals at the age of 24 with no job.  no thanks.  life is filled with lessons, i have a lot to learn from this current experience i've put myself in.  i'm hoping things will start to pick up in the next month or so, not sure how much longer i can live with little money.

enough of the bad news about me.  i work on an army base in mexico (ok it's really in texas but it's right by the border, so it's mexico here).  my only friends are those i see at work every day.  i hang out with army guys (and girls) on the weekends.  i've seen the core of the army lifestyle.  and i am baffled and appalled.  i've seen those who are true to their man in uniform and i've seen those who cheat the moment their man is gone.  i've seen women who can stand on their own when their husband is gone and those who are lost without him by their side.  i now see that there is no way i could ever have that lifestyle.  i made good friends with this one guy who wanted to date me, but after seeing everything that i have, i've stopped talking to him.  the guys out here are a whole new breed from what i'm used to.  since i work on base i thought it best to wear a fake wedding ring so not to get hit on all day.  guys will ask if i'm seeing someone, or ask if i'm married, etc and once they hear yes they ask where he's at so they can go ask him if it's ok to take me on a date.  or they ask where he is so he can go kick is ass.  or tell me that i'd be better off with them instead of my guy.  the guys are friggen desperate out here and it's sad.  they see a girl and everyone pounces.  now we see why i wear a fake ring. 

hmm.... what else is new in life?  not much.  i miss theatre.  i work a lot.  i'm the boy's right hand at work. and left actually; he'd be unorganized and lost without me even though this is his business.  i'm working towards being his admin.  heat exhaustion sucks.  i'm closer to the sun, so i have a nice farmers tan/burn.  i have a chinchilla named squirrelly.  sand storms might be the death of me.  i miss rain.  and water.  i'm still just trying to find my place in the world.  and now i'm trying to find my next dream.

life in austin

so it's been a very long while since i have updated.  i've been so busy.  all i do is work and sleep, literally.  it kinda sucks, but i'm trying to prove myself in my newest business. 

i'm currently living in my third and final place in austin, i got kicked out of my friend's over a month ago.  i was friends with this girl in high school and she helped me move out after austin kicked me out and said i could sleep on her couch "as long as i needed."  cool.  only her roommate is a prude.  and planted some obscure images in her head that the latest guy i'm dating had a key to the apartment and was rummaging the place while we weren't there.  so i got kicked out.  haven't spoken to my friend since. 

i no longer work at the restaurant.  i quit awhile back because there was too much bs and drama and it just wasn't working out.  and working a full time and part time job just wasn't working out either. 

i'm living with the guy i've been dating.  i've been here for a few weeks now, we started dating around halloween.  he's my boss, well kinda.  he's the guy that hired me, the assistant manager of the company, so yeah, kinda my boss.  there's a lot of crap that comes with it in the office, such as the owner being a hypocritical bitch and not liking us together although she's been dating the guy that hired her for god knows how long.  i like this guy.  he met my parents on thanksgiving.  he's meeting my mom's side this next weekend for family christmas.  i'm meeting his parents during christmas.  it's my very first major holiday i'm not going home.  it broke my mom's heart.  but i'm growing up, and i have a guy who means a lot to me in my life now.  in january we are moving out of austin to go to houson for a few months before moving to denver.  he's opening up his own office out there, but first has to open a satellite office in houston to prove to the company he can run a business.  so in a few weeks he will be my actual boss.  and we'll be living in houston together.  and then denver.  to start a life together.  weird.

my job is kinda cool.  i work WAY too much though.  it was a great job when i first started, good hours, not bad pay, awesome coworkers.  now the hours changed and i work 12 hour days.  i wake up at 6:30am, leave by 7:30, work 8:30am-7:30pm.  sometimes we don't get home until 9.  so i eat and fall asleep in boss' lap as we watch tv on the couch.  and i work 6 days a week.  i can't take it any more.  i'm over worked, exhausted, and i'm not taking care of my body.  but i've been fighting to prove to myself and everyone else (mainly the owner) that i can make it in this business.  and i think i might finally get my promotion by the end of next week.  next step, houston.

i'm so ready to be out of austin.  i know, i know, i was so excited to move here.  but i've been kicked out of two places, i have nothing tying my here, things haven't seemed to work out, so why not continue to find my place in the world.  i'm still young.  granted, i didn't try too hard to make life work here, i just let things happen and fall into place.  just didn't expect to move three times within my first two months.  i'm happy with where i'm at in life, and i'm happy with boss, so i'm going to go experience life with him. 

that's basically my life right now.  work.  boss.  work.  exciting huh?

procrastination and three jobs

they don't go hand in hand together, let me tell you.

i'm been severely busy as of late, and it won't stop for a while.  so posts might come few and far between. 

i don't have time for anyone on my laundry list and i'm done playing games for now.

i now have two jobs, one full time, one part time.  i might lose the part time when i tell them i can't work one of the three shifts they actually give me.  it will suck, but i'll get my weekend nights back.  i work on fort hood often and see those men in uniforms nonstop.  but almost all army guys are the same, they are all hornballs who cheat and lie and cause nothing but drama and bullsh*t.  but i still have my guy in there.  army is a friend from high school, one of my best friends, been there through thick and thin.  and we are discussing the signing of a legal document.  like, legit considering it.  me.  really?  wow.  but for all the wrong reasons, and it's not actually serious.

but there is a new guy i'm interested in.  big boss man.  he's not really the boss, but he did hire me, and he is above me in rank at my new job.  and it's already caused drama.  fml.  and like i said, i'm done playing games.  i need to discuss the situation with him and let him know what's going on in my head.

i finally saw austin.  we're going to try to be friends.  it was awkward seeing him.  but he finally has his key back.  and i sent him a drunk text the other night.  that was fun.  (note the sarcasm)

emo is gone.  sad day.  i didn't get to see him one last time, but i wish him all the best for sure.  mma is your typical douche.  i get to work with him and twin tonight.  this guy looks identical to a guy i worked with in college, only more muscular and f-ing GORGEOUS!  i like him.  he's fun.  but if the legal document does in fact get signed, all hell will break lose and the flood gates of drama will burst, and bullshit will be had.  life will get kicked up to a whole new level that i've never seen before.  i just don't have the time or energy for that with these two jobs.