week 2 : it's been so long since i've felt this tired and naked

another sporadic blog for you all.  the second week has come to an end here in new york.  we opened our first show, which means a week filled with little sleep and lots of rehearsals.  here's the adventures from my week.


monday (5.24): so i have discovered that i've been out of theatre for too long.  and i have also discovered that, although this is a very challenging field in which i do enjoy, i am ready to change career path to where i really want to be.  my dream is at my fingertips and it's difficult to keep motivated in ny when i know i'll get where i want when i get back to texas.


also, i'm naked.  ok, hold on a sec.  let me explain before your imagination runs wild.  i took out my eye brow ring.  i finally, and actually, did it.  i've been saying that i need to, and i finally did.  there's some scar tissue in it, so i have a little lump on my face, and i will have two little scars where the holes were.  and i'm ok with this.  on the plus side, i will be getting two more in its place (no, not nipples).  i'm still a rebel, just grown up a little.  it'll be a surprise for the parental unit.


tuesday (5.25):  producer's run sucked ass.  levels were all over the place.  tech went better, until my mics died.  i don't like children, i don't like mic-ing children, i don't like being in the same room with them.  luckily they entertain themselves and don't bother me too much. 


wednesday (5.26): thunder's a rumblin' inside and out.  final dress.  what a mess.  haha.  wow.  it's been a long night.  everyone was on edge today.  not sure why.  that's not true, i know why.  everyone was stressing out, freaking out, and attacking anyone in the way.  which sometimes meant me.  and that occasionally put me in a bad mood.  but i'm just calm and relaxed, not stressing, not fretting that we open tomorrow night.


thursday (5.27):  well we finally opened our first show.  that being said, where the hell did the week go?!  i'm about ready to kill the choreographer, luckily he leaves monday.  the opening went well, for it being the opening that is.  there were some things that went well, others that went not so well.  but it's live theatre, so it's bound to happen.  i forgot that i'll be dealing with a huge pet peeve of mine every show.  that being audience members who come up to me and give me their opinion on my levels.  i have it set the way it worked for rehearsals, the way that i know works for the actors, and if there was a problem with it, why didn't anyone tell me during final dress?  ok, that's what i thought.  assholes. 

i don't think the lady who signs the checks likes the way i run things, that might mean i'll be coming home early.  so long as i get paid for the time that i'm here, and i have enough money to make it back, i'm ok with leaving early.  second show's about to start for the day.  and afterwards is tech on the deck, where we celebrate our (the technicians) hard work on the show and take a shot in our honor.  following that is chatham house, where we drink and celebrate opening.  i could use a drink.

friday (5.28): opening night went ok. accidentally turned off the orchestra during one part, oops. at least now it won't happen again. opening night party was meh. didn't get drunk. didn't really drink at all actually. i was too exhausted.

can anything go right?  why do i feel like i'm doing everything wrong?  i don't feel like i'm fitting in.  it's just not going well.  luckily this week has flown by, and i'm one week closer to going home.  tonight is gala, where we get free alcohol from the people who contribute money to the theatre.  i can dig this.  it's been one hell of a week and i'm in a slump.  hopefully things will get better sooner rather than later.

saturday (5.29): oh gala, how interesting you were.  i should have learned my lesson at b rhyder shows to not drink excessive amounts of free beer.  but i didn't.  at least i know how to not be too terribly hungover from said free beer.  i got cocked blocked last night.  that was.. almost intense.  i thought there might have been a bitch fight.  i was just dancing, a guy was next to me, who i know, and am friends with, so we just started dancing together.  then the whore who's sleeping with him had to come over and mark her territory while giving me the "don't-you-dare-try-to-get-with-my-man" look.  seriously?  we were just dancing.  yes he is cute, but no i'm not interested.  it's summer stock.  i know how it goes, it's not my first rodeo.  everyone sleeps with everyone, and i'm not down to catch anything from these whores.  thank you, good night.

i think things are starting to look up again.  which is a nice change.  it's been a horrible past couple of days.  the last bad thing that happened was last night when someone turned off a mic backstage that's used in an offstage speech.  not an important mic at all.  (note the sarcasm.)  other than that, the show went well.  i had fun, from what i remember, at the gala.  today is a two show day.  and i have coffee house, which is were audience members have coffee and dessert while watching a few members of the cast sing random show tunes.  i know, i feel the same way about it as you do.  at least i'll get free dessert!  elk is today as well.  elk is a group of supporters who cook us a meal once a week.  it's usually disgusting, but tolerable.  it's a kind effort and thought.  i appreciate them.  i got my script for the next show (anything goes).  longest show ever, i can't make it through the thing in one sitting.  easy sfx, not many at all.  that means i have less of a chance to screw something up and more of a chance to fall asleep on the job.  lose-lose situation there, but i like what i do, i enjoy it.  and that's what matters.