things are moving slow as a snail here. start week two of our three week show tomorrow. and i'm tired of it already. no recent development with ne. and i'm content with this. i don't need nor want anything serious to come out of it. just keep each other company, deal with our demons, and leave each other behind again, probably to never see each other again. although, we see where that statement got us last time. ut is still always contacting me. i don't mind. probably just wants things to not be awkward when i get there to visit, like it was last time. i like talking to him. we're friends again. it's nice. atx formerly known as tx can't wait any longer for me to get there. i've been asked a couple of times now what i what, who i see myself with, who's my ideal guy, what do i want out of each, etc. here's my answer: i would, always have, wanted to end up with ne but i know it will never happen. we are two very different people in very different parts of our lives always and still. ut is a good person, he will always be attached to me, and a part of me will always be with him, i think we will always be friends, and if we ever end up in the same place we would date again, and i wouldn't mind that. however it won't happen, or i don't think it will. atx, well i just don't know about that one. we were starting to get to know each other when i was there. distance is continuing to tear us apart. i'll be able to answer the questions pertaining to him in a month. so for now, i'm gonna keep company with ne, go visit a newly redeveloped friend tn and have fun, then make it back to atx to pick up the pieces. (broken record)
i have encountered my most difficult sound effect to date. i need a specific recording of ed sullivan's voice. i've had easy breezy sfxs up until now. and i'm stuck on this one. i don't know how i'm gonna find it. any suggestions? did i mention i hate birdie? because i do. i was in utah at a road house when the tour came through, since i was a girl i was put on wardrobe, followed around leads who walked all over me, and listened to annoying songs over and over. and now i have to legit do it here. i. hate. birdie. and by the time i'm done with the show in ny, i will have a passion of hatred for the show. i want this birdie to go bye bye. and conrad, as for you, i don't love you, sorry. (song: "we love you conrad, oh yes we do, we love you conrad.... ") (broken record)
seeing as how i have less than a month left in this sh*t hole, i've started the dreaded job search. no one is hiring. i've sent my resume to a couple of places. and searched the theatres in austin, but nothing is open. i don't know what i'm going to do. i just started the hunt and i'm already freaking out. this isn't bueno. i just want a position as an a2 at a road house, preferably in austin. is that so much to ask? (pipe dream)
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